The Good Kind of Dorky


Sunday, February 26, 2006

Bedroom Eyes

I have big eyelids. I get them from the Polish side of the family (mom's side). Mom does not have big eyelids, but her dad does. I get my "saddlebags" from my mom's biological mom and my droopy eyelids from my mom's biological dad (she was adopted that is why I am using the word biological). When I was younger people sometimes thought I was stoned. I've never been stoned in my entire life. I didn't always like my eyelids, but Mom calls them bedroom eyes. When I wear eyeshadow you can see it, unlike on some people. I like my bedroom eyes, they are sexy and unique. You don't see eyelids like mine everyday!
This doesn't even illustrate my eyes very well, but it's proof I'm a total ham.

Saturday, February 25, 2006

My most likely soon to be new doggy daughter.
Her name is Nadine...I may or may not change that. I sort of like the name Madeline. What do you think she looks like??

Do I Look Fat in This?

Last night while I was at Barnes and Noble, I decided to check out the Self-Improvement section. I was looking for a book that Stacia had recommended about people who have many passions, called The Renaissance Soul. I was going to buy that book, but then I saw this...

It's time that I work on my little problem. Hopefully this book will offer some insight...

I will keep you updated.

Friday, February 24, 2006

my nose...

I like my nose.

Gotta Love My Neighbors Back Home

Here is a picture of me and Sara at Matt's house over Christmas.
We are with his dog Lily.

Thursday, February 23, 2006

Today's Journal Entry

This morning I took my clothes off in bed (a lazy person's preparation for a shower) and I thought, I like my hips, they look nice today. I'm glad that I have curves--I wouldn't want to be straight like a boy.

This is me now. Well, a couple of months ago at Christmas. I am singing into a lighter that looks like a match. I sing because it makes me happy even though I am tone deaf. It's okay that I am tone deaf--I wasn't meant to be a singer. When I sing I am so tone deaf it makes people laugh. Maybe God wanted my voice to be bad to make people smile. I'm happy in that picture because I was at home with in NY with my family.

My Quest for a Healthier Lifestyle

I was thinking about "My Journey." After pondering for many hours the meaning of blogging, I came to the realization that up until now, my blog has been a random introduction to who I am. I thought about deleting it and starting over or starting an entirely new blog dedicated to my journey. Instead I decided to leave it as it is and let it evolve...hopefully into something that will inspire America. Ok, if it inspires even one person I will be content. And then maybe it isn't about inspiring as much as it is about self-discovery...inspiring one's self.

I also came to the conclusion that it shouldn't just be about my journey to a better body image, but rather it should be a quest for a healthier lifestyle. This means being healthier physically, emotionally, spiritually, etc... a definition TBD. It's about balance, love, tranquility, friendship, sexuality, education, creativity...enhancing the mind, body and spirit. I invite you to come along for the ride. PLEASE feel free to give advice or offer suggestions/comments. More importantly, I'd like you to feel free to tell your story.

After I went to the gym last night I decided to walk over to the grocery store, which is conviniently in the same plaza. I decided to buy some organic tea for relaxation before bed. I bought two boxes of Yogi Tea. One was Egyptian Licorice Mint and the other was Cocoa something or other... I tried the mint one. It left a licorice taste in the back of my throat, which was sort of weird, but nice and satisfying at the same time. I drank it before bed while I watched American Idol. It was nice and relaxing. However, I pee a lot and so when I was ready for bed, I had to get out of bed at least three times to pee. Each time my pillow seemed unfluffed so I had to refluff. This annoyed Edgar. He yelled at me, but luckily I couldn't hear him through the earplugs I was wearing to drown out his snoring.

In conclusions, that tea tasted good and organic means healthy. My first step in MY QUEST FOR A HEALTHIER LIFESTYLE.

Wednesday, February 22, 2006

One time i looked like this...

Now I weight about 35 lbs less. I should be happy. But I am psycho.

My Journey

I am obsessive. I obsess about my weight multiple times a day. This annoys people like Edgar and Sarah. They don't like to hear me say that I am fat a hundred times a day everyday. So I decided to start a journal and each day I have to write something positive about myself. It can be something physical or just a characteristic about myself that I like.

Yesterday I said I like my legs after I run because they feel strong and they allow me to move. I am not yet at the point of saying I like my legs. Sarah said it will be interesting to see my progress. I will keep you all informed and I will be sure to share my discoveries as well as some of my daily journal entries. Today I said I like my hair. Sarah said that my hair looked good today so I used that. It was kind of a cop out because I didn't want to come up with anything myself. In reality my stomach feels really fat today, but I'm not supposed to say that. Forget I said that. It was against the rules.