More Wedding Talk of Course
Gosh. Time flies when you're, well, just busy. Work has been a little bit crazy the past few days and have I mentioned recently that I'm planning a wedding? Last Saturday I met with the "flower chair" at my church so she could show me the altar flower containers. Perhaps the least notable wedding activity to date. I made up for the it though when I headed over to my appointment with my seamstress. She did the custom beading on my dress and I got to see it completed for the first time. Can I just say, AMAZING! The gown is just.so.me. I get so excited at the thought of seeing my dress again. We're in that exciting, early relationship stage and I'm still getting butterflies. In fact, I get to see my beautiful gown tomorrow morning. She did the first alterations so when I try it on tomorrow, it's actually going to fit. I hope. Maybe I shouldn't have had pasta and chocolate malt balls tonight. Plus, it's that lovely time of the month. Hmmm, yeah, might be a little snug.
In other exciting wedding news, my veil is ready to be picked up, as are my bridesmaids' dresses. I can't wait to see them!
This wedding is really going to happen!
Speaking of the wedding really happening, I am having some mixed feelings about it. Okay, no jumping to conclusions here people. I have no mixed feelings about Edgar. I am not having any doubts. What I mean is, I am having a wide range of emotions as The Big Day gets closer. Thinking about the actual day, seeing my dress, thinking about being Edgar's wife, ordering shoes--all of the important stuff--makes me want to jump up and down and let out a girly squeal. Being a wife, losing the single woman identity that I've carried for 26 years, the thought of changing my name, transitioning into a full-blown adult--all scary stuff. And even though I've lived away from my parents for over three years, I still feel like I'm their little girl to some extent and marriage will somehow change that. I am aware this probably sounds so lame, but I am also sad that on June 8, my wedding day will have already passed. The day I have been looking forward to since I was five years old will be over. I know there will many more happy times and things to look forward to (baaaabies!), but I still get a little sad that the anticipation will be over. I'll be married. I will have a husband. I will be a wife.
So tell me o wise married ones, how were you feeling in the months and weeks leading up to your big day? Was it pure elation or did you have some mixed emotions too?